I Can't Stand The Distance

"I can't dream alone.
And in the hour of darkness
Your light gets me through."

(Bryan Adams "I Will Always Return.")

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Wow. I suppose that I need to explain this a bit don't I? I don't normally draw myself with ficitonal characters in a "romantic" sense like I did with this drawing. But...well. To put it midly without going into a lot of detail.

I've been going through a difficult time lately, with my emotions running wild. It may be linked to one thing, and it very may be linked to many things all at once. I don't know really, but nevertheless I've been having a tough time keeping myself happy for a bit, even if I shield it away half the time.

And while I still love Zuko and Iroh...I have to say that recently my connection with them have been failing. Perhaps it's my fault, but I don't blame anyone at all (And I mean it. No one at all made me feel this way.) for what has been going on lately.

But it seems that...only one person has been able to get me through this difficult time and allowed me to smile for a while. And that's Frodo.

*gets stranges looks* Look. It's not a secret that I've had a relationship with Zuko and Iroh in a loving sense, and that I care about them as though they were real...but now I've connected myself to Frodo Baggins and Samwise Gamgee, perhaps even deeper. And I have to say that I haven't felt this sort happiness in a few months. Frodo mostly has gvien me everything I had with Zuko and lets me feel that emotion I had before.

It's such a great feeling, you know? So when I had a bad time with my emotions one night, I sat down, found a base that was just amazing (By MonahellLawliet) and I got to work tinkering with it.

It wasn't suppose to be anything, just a doodle...but it came out well, and I thought this would give me a good way to fight through everything...and afterwards I felt better.

I hope you all can understand the concept behind this picture, if not. Allow me, this is what I had in mind whilst I was doing it.

On the the left is myself, I'm leaned up against a mirror and sobbing while reaching for Frodo. And Frodo, he is on the right...stuck in his own world, and in Mordor. All the while trying to reach to me. The mirror represents the fact that he is fictional and that I am real. And that the line between us can never be crossed and we can never be with eachother.

And while I know that good and well, this picture just shows what I felt when I was down that night. So I am very sad by the fact he gives me happiness and joy, but we can never touch or feel eachother's hand on the other. So yes. I'm being a sap.

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But all emoness aside. I was happy when I did this, and it came out so well. I really just awnted to stop halfway through, but I kept going because I wanted to finish it darn it.

So I hope you enjoy this, and I hope you don't consider me weird for posting this...I am trying to pretend that I am a Mary Sue, and nor a mindless fangirl that wants to kiss her characters. It's deeper than that I have to say.

And I hope you understand that and don't judge me for this picture. Anyhow, picture wise..I'm happy with how we came out, but the shading on our hair and some of the background in Mordor SUCKS. HARD. So I'm sorry about that...eh. Overlook it please.

But please, enjoy the picture. And you know good and well that comments and faves can brighten my day even a bit. So thank you for reading and looking. Means a lot.

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(c): Frodo Baggins and Mordor and everything else that is not myself...does not belong to me. It belongs to J.R.R Tolkien and the base belongs to . So that doesn't belong to me either. I just belong to me...and this picture I created. So don't sue. I'm not claiming anything. Just my own emotions. Hah.